Tough Times

Hello there...I know I haven't dedicated the time I wanted to this blog and plan to change that. Times have been rather rough as of late. My business died before it was every really born :( My unemployment ran out last week, and while I need to find a job asap, I'm holding off on submitting resumes as I'm have been employed by my dad to help him get my grandmother in a nursing home and then her over hoarded house emptied. We're waiting for a bed right now, which is a moral issue with me as how exactly does one pray for a spot knowing that the usual course of obtaining one is someone dying. Meanwhile though the longer it takes the more scared grandma is getting and the more time she has to change her mind which is a daily occurance now. Its one of my jobs to keep her mind on all the positives the  home will offer her. In this process, I haven't been home much we're in Connecticut one week then home in NY for a few days then back to CT, I miss my boys, my pooch, and my bed terribly while away. My eating is disaterous it takes an incredible amount of willpower to eat healthy there. Food ...bad food is everywhere and my uncle who lives there likes junk and lots of it and uses us being there as an excuse to eat even more so every meal unless I can jump on the cooking process is fat laden and junky. I gave up lastweek all my new year new me intentions by day 3 of being there. The next trip I wont however. Enough of this nonsense. I deserve to be healthy and to get there have to stop making excuses along the way and just stay on the wagon once and for all.